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chiaki_chan) wrote2009-05-05 08:56 pm
chiaki_chan) wrote2009-05-05 08:56 pm
Pathetic
So apparently I have to make a toast for my friend Dawn's wedding because I'm the Maid of Honor. I don't do speeches outside of class, I just found out about this (she called me from Kuwait), and I'll flat out say I think its a bunch of bull. I've never been to a wedding where the Maid of Honor is the one making the speech, it's always the Best Man. I know I sound childish when I say I don't want to do it but I don't. Her Mother is throwing a hissy fit about my dress, I wont see Dawn again until the end of the month, and then wont see her again until the actual wedding. She doesn't have anyone to take my place and I know she'd do anything for me but...I can't do a speech.
Which brings me to the point of my entry. I am pathetic. I am failing at everything outside of work because I could do my job with my hands tied behind my back. Course then the room would be a disaster area and kids would be able to run away after doing something wrong and not worry about getting caught.
I'm craptacular at role playing and keeping up with the game, I'm a terrible friend because even though I've never met my online friends (who are some of my closest friends, shows you how lame I am) I'm like a kid and am attached to them. To the point where if they go off and leave me for long periods of times or they leave cryptic remarks about being upset I automatically think it's my fault. That I've fucked up in some way.
Stupid HFA.
My apartment is a disaster but I'm to tired to keep it clean, relationships are in tatters right now and not just ones involving my family, and my bank account is consistently in the red.
Gomen, I know it's a load of complaints but...well I had to get them out and I figured this be the best place to do it. I'll try and post some sort of actual content next time.
Which brings me to the point of my entry. I am pathetic. I am failing at everything outside of work because I could do my job with my hands tied behind my back. Course then the room would be a disaster area and kids would be able to run away after doing something wrong and not worry about getting caught.
I'm craptacular at role playing and keeping up with the game, I'm a terrible friend because even though I've never met my online friends (who are some of my closest friends, shows you how lame I am) I'm like a kid and am attached to them. To the point where if they go off and leave me for long periods of times or they leave cryptic remarks about being upset I automatically think it's my fault. That I've fucked up in some way.
Stupid HFA.
My apartment is a disaster but I'm to tired to keep it clean, relationships are in tatters right now and not just ones involving my family, and my bank account is consistently in the red.
Gomen, I know it's a load of complaints but...well I had to get them out and I figured this be the best place to do it. I'll try and post some sort of actual content next time.