I Give Up...

My sister sent me a text message a few minuites ago asking if I was awake. I sent one back saying that I was and then she gave me a call. It wasn't even a minuite into the conversation and she was interupting me, not letting me speak at all, and telling me to keep my nose out of family matters. Three minuites into the conversation I hung up on her. When she called back a few seconds later I didn't even bother answering and now I have a voice mail on my phone from her which I can garuntee is going to be rather nasty... Especially after I sent her a text message saying I refused to talk to someone who kept interrupting me.

It's Christmas Eve...not even twenty minuites until Christmas and I'm a frelling wreck. I haven't seen my sister in over a year... Haven't had a civil conversation with her in more then twenty years. I suppose it's a good thing Grant's work schedule changed on him. If Natalie was such a prick when she met ashmcairo then I really don't want to see what she'd do if she met Grant.

I miss Mom so bad now. I want to curl up in her lap and have her hold me wile she wore that brown floral print robe she always wore whenever I was sick. I don't want to go home for Christmas and have to face Jullya and the kids.

All I want to do is curl up and cry right now....

I'm so tired of these depressing entries...

I just listened to the voice message... Someone tell me why I do this to myself. She's telling me to distance myself from my Dad... That apperently she was excited to meet my new boyfriend but now she doesn't think it will work out to see me on Christmas Day or anyday in the near future because I took offense that she disowned our father. I told her never to contact me again. I can't take this anymore...